|This is one of my favorite pictures of myself!!|
My entire life i have always worried that other people would think I was vain and not pretty enough to be vain. So I never let myself look in reflective surfaces if others could see me and I never tried to be the 'pretty' girl. I was 'buddy' girl. I always felt like the ugly ducking, orange hair, big teeth, freckles, round belly...I never let the real me out, nor did I let anyone else in. But now, that's changing. I'm not always happy with what I see in the mirror, but I am pretty pleased with how I feel on the inside, and I believe that is reflecting on the outside. I have, after 36 years, begun to love myself. Really and truly. I'm not cocky, or egotistical, but I know that it's okay for me to be happy, and I accept that I make my own path. I refuse to let anyone else ever hurt me...and I only try to be good...I am human, so of course mistakes are made, a lot....but I try always to make up for them, and make everyone as happy as I am. And i love me...how did I get here?!? Self reflection, meditation, and surrounding myself with an amazing group of spiritual and creative goddesses. And a little, fake it till i make it....It's okay to be happy. It's okay to love yourself. Even if you think no one else does...you do, and should. I want everyone that reads this to take some time today and remind yourselves of at least one thing you love about YOU...No negativity or thinking it's lame. Believe in yourself, if you don't how can anyone else? I believe in me, and I believe in YOU.